Hometown poem
"You can't go home again" apparently includes revising certain poems. Is it because they were written in a different time and might need to stay preserved there—fossils of a former life?
What words felt true: Home of my youth. When I was eighteen, I went away to college. It was only a neat ninety minutes away, but I didn’t drive so it might as well have been on an island. When I came back home for winter break, I felt lost— called myself a ghost—remembered everything in my hometown like a war and a lifetime had passed since the last time I left it behind. I wrote a poem then, starting with the words: Home of my youth. At eighteen, I was already elderly, I guess. I was so proud of that poem. I tried to return to it recently, to revise now that thirty-plus years have passed, and I’m back driving through the faded yellow hills crowded with curling oaks, back in the blue-green water of my parents’ pool, where my six kids splashed this afternoon. But that poem— it’s not that it was bad. It was fine. It felt true at the time. But even now that my first youth is in the rearview mirror, I would never say the words Home of my youth. It’s so twee. But at eighteen, it felt so serious to me.



I had the privilege of revisiting "the land of my youth" in Iowa, 60 years after I graduated. I had been back for my 20th and 25th reunions and this last one held me in a state of joy and appreciation and great wonder about the vicissitudes of time. The hand of wisdom guided me and allowed me to be myself without pretense. A gift!
Heh, I am going through the mud with trying to leave for college in about a year and I honestly can't wait to look back on my experiences and say "I moved on but i still did that. I'm not where I was before" 👋 Hi from the opposite side of this perspective 👋