
Isolated for the foreseeable future we scramble to make summer something other than waiting for the pandemic to "end." My husband lays the calendar on our long table and marks days like a general planning an attack for hiking in lonely places with our kids. They wear masks when the trails get busy and pull back when a man crowds the path his cologne hanging heavy after he passes. After these trips, the kids tumble from the van wet and dirty, their shoes filled with silt or mud from a creek, fumbling over each other to be the first one to tell the stories from the day. My husband brings up the rear, blue eyes bright but exhausted from the work of making their summer something other than what it is: hiding from an illness that falls all around us, like sunlight or the smoke from a campfire burning damply in our backyard.
Ohhhh what a tender and beautiful ending!
My oldest daughter still hates hiking in some of the beautiful places we went that summer. They have too much association with fear and anxiety for her to be able to enjoy them anymore. It makes me so sad. Some of the best places for herons and osprey, and my bird-crazy girl won't go on hikes there because they feel like covid. To me those nature preserves and paths felt like such a gift, such freedom. I loved the impetus to get out and explore places we might not have gone otherwise, but the feeling was not universal.